You were so great once…
You were so great once…
I sure am. July 4th is Cancer.
[Original Manga: HERE]
[NSFW under cut.]
Ludwig paused for a moment. When Alfred said it, things looked dreadfully unequal, unfair. It was that realisation that brought him to the embarrassing conclusion that he was acting like a little boy still fiercely guarding the ideal family life he had thrived under no matter what and no matter who came into his life. Besides that, he was the one who spouted the notion of fairness and democratic thinking at his fellow students, and here he was doing the opposite out of stubbornness.
"…While I don’t intend to rush this," he said, after a tentative thought, "but, it’s not fair on you, or my family, if I kept quiet and forced you to behave any differently to cover up our relationship. You must think so too, don’t you? It’s not right." He clenched and unclenched a fist, and he looked away. "They love me… and yet I don’t trust them to love me enough to accept our love for each other." He smiled unhappily and looked at Alfred again. "What the hell kind of a son and brother am I?"
Certainly not the one he thought he was. When was it that he had stopped trusting his own family? When the last screaming row had left them as three, not four? When after years of personal and emotional solitude which he mistook for stoicism and strength he had become emotionally isolated from his own family? Who could say?
Alfred smiled and placed a hand on Ludwig’s shoulder, and nodded his head.
"Look Ludwig, don’t be so hard on yourself. Unless there is something I do not know about, you only just found out you have feelings for me recently. And technically that does not even really make you gay, unless you have had feelings for other men before. So as of this moment unless you fit the other criteria. You are just in love with me and I happen to be a guy. I guess that may make it sound more complicated that it really is, but if that helps you ease into your decision all the better. Oh… And another thing. Don’t do this for me. I could care less if who knows or does not know. As long as no one tries to stop me from seeing you." Alfred kissed the German lightly. "I have nothing to lose, and I will do whatever I need to, to be with you." Alfred smiled. "You see Ludwig you are my best friend and I love you. Hell the planet could not keep us apart. And now that you are back in my life… I am going to keep you as long as I can. So take your time with your decision, but don’t forget your family loves you too."